I'm sorry hun. You know you can always talk to me. I didn't know either of my grandfathers but I am fortunate enough to still have both of my grandmothers. You know I'm always here for you. You have my number and my screen name if you ever want to talk.
I'm sure one of these days life will finally go in your favor and you'll be able to come to my show and see me. heh, the craziest shit always happens to us. Just know that she really is in a better place and that she'll always be looking down on you.